الثلاثاء، 12 نوفمبر 2013
Palestine misses you so much and I miss you too.. That's true...Our beloved country still in my heart and my mind.. Our Immortal Palestine still pride, and stands high... So do all of your people.. My beloved poetry, Palestine is in my heart and always will' ...I pray always to see its independent day come and live that moments and celebrate
Rest in Peace my dear role model
الاثنين، 11 نوفمبر 2013
It's so great feeling when you feel so much mess inside .. and lost too , and in the same time you decide to act like nothing wrong, to behave like everything is fine and tell yourself : " You're great and everything is great too"... Believe me, words have their own power, what we tell ourselves will always effect on us .. they have their way to show up ... That's exactly what happened to me today at work
I was there, arrived late a little bit, feeling kind of lost .. still smiling yes,still happy sure, but carrying a lot of mess inside..I didn't want that mess take the control all over me so, I started to tell my mind those words: "I'm Great and everything is great too" !!! At that moment, I felt all the mess inside me started to disappear .. and that lost feeling gone too !!It seems the words I kept telling to myself took place and it effected on my , woooow !!
My boss came around and liked to bother me -as he does always- because he sees me coming late ..I'm talking about "The Bad Boss" that mean one who had back to our department since last March.. He liked to drive me of, or make me upset but it didn't work for him... cause all the time he was talking I was just calm and silent , was looking at his face with millions of words through my eyes .. I was saying through my eyes like: "You're Not Even Worthy to waste my energy on you at all"
So, here'show things will work from now on.. I'll never waste my time or my energy with someone low, disrespectful, and not worthy like you... So, that's why I decided to ignore him ..And that was really what killed him, my silent killed him, my calm killed him, and "that look" oh! that look was like a slaps on his face... wooooow!!!! that was so great
My Blog is my stage to make my voice heard And tonight,
All what I can say is:
My Islam is a great Message..
My Hejab is not just a scarf covering my head but it's a big responsibility that I took it by my own free will
My behavior is the mirror of my character, my back ground and my religion
Its the only way to show others who am I and what I believe .
I treat other as well as I want to be treated
الأحد، 3 نوفمبر 2013
Don't Worry, everything will be alright. Don't worry, GOD Loves you & HE is always beside you, protects you, guides you and blesses you" .... !!!
That's exactly what I tell myself whenever I feel upset about something in this life or some people shock me with their bad and unexpected behavior , or even some kind of negative energy attacks me, , to make me feel sad, disappointed, shock, confuse ,,lost, or even hurt .
.Those moments when the negative comments snoop on my head and make tears come to my eyes and make me so weak ..Those moments when my brain lucks and everythings around turns to seem dark..
At That moments,, the other part of me starts to take place, statrs to encourage me, hold me, cheer me up and say: " Don't worry girl, GOD IS with you and HE always Loves you, and Care over you" "..
In some how those words cheer me up,bring smile to my face, bring hope to my heart , wipe all the negative thoughts away, make me feel better and bring tranquility to my soul again and put me back to the happiness road and in great mood
Those little possitive words has the power to put me in my position again which is "Be simple and stay happy and hopeful" .
I beleive that voice inside me which talks to me and encourage me when I feel hassitate, hold me up when I feel doubt, I beleive that voice inside me is "The Voice Of GOD" to save us in our darkness moments.. "The Voice Of GOD inside everyone of us " . -as Oprah Winfrey always says -
It seems everytime I refresh myself and recharge my faith , I look up to the sky , smile and say: "Thank You GOD for everything" , Then I move on back to my rotine with more faith and confidence!
Tonight, after snset I had that moments with myself... Tonight was not my perfect Sunday night as it used to be .. which means have fun, connect with family and friends, take awalk, listen to my favorite Arabic music, comeback home, watch movies and then read some book before going to sleep. Tonight I actualy went for walk but the delightful energy I used to have when I'm walking was lost .. Tonight, I needed a lot of fresh air, so I had to go out and take a walk.
In some point, I was wondering about what happened to my mother last week, when they told me how she was so happy after she came back from the "HAJJ" from the Muslim holly journey , the Pilgrim to Mekkah--Saudi Arabia, and after she reached home, She callabsed sudenly... and my sisters took her to the Emmergency and then after few hours she became better and back to home
In some point I was wondering about him.. that gentleman who likes me.. that gentleman who paid my attention lately. A considerate and kind man, hundsome, helpful, generous and has a very charming eyes... A man who's from different world, different calture, different language and different religion ... wooOoow, how that suppouse to make me feel.
happy once hesitate twice, excited once scared twice.. surrounding once avvoiding twice ..,
In some point I was wondering about what happened to me befor last week when some one I considered as a friend and a relative texted me a verbal harrasment text-message which surprised me, shocked me and blew me up ?
Bad and dirty words from someone who's muslim, someone who pray to ALLAH five times a day.. who suppose to have morals and principles and values in this life.. who supose to be a rreligeous guy. Oh my God, I remember how his cheap and dirty words pits me of and how my reaction abt what he did made me so agressiv,,, You can say: "I'm still i shock"
On other hand,, While I was walking, I was wondering about how I've got involved with work more than school, How I've been so far from chasing my Dreams and goals lately.
all my passion for writing, and politic
all the academic ambitions that I hold it in my heart
In some point, I was wondering about my life in this strange and tough country.."USA", and how much I miss Home -YEMEN-.
Alot of negative thoughts were buthering me tonight, a lot of fears were buthering me.. there was only the sound of silince all my way walking at the begining .. there was sadnes state and tears, a lot of questions, a lot of "What, Why, Where, How, If...etc" were coming to my head..
I was talking to GOD without voice all the way... Asking HIM to guide me, bless me, shower HIS Graces on me and protect me.. At the end of my walking journey tonight when that voice started to talk to me everythig turned to light up.. the darkness spot turned of and graces of GOD were around in everywhere I look at!
I came back home totaly relaxed and in good mood .. Hah!!, what a lucky girl I am because GOD LOVES me and SHOWES me always how valuable I'm !!
so I decided to let all things on GOD's HAND and take the Worry-Free side